When your love is dying, go and plant a tree.

I'm slowly coming to the conclusion that maybe I am just a cynical, self absorbed, paranoid bitch. I mean, I'd always agree with the comments, but never believed them. I know I have the ability to overreact but something in my brain just grips on to this fact that no matter what anyone says...that I'm right...and everyone else is just hoping I'm a fool. But I keep looking like a fool anyways.
Especially when I was playing Rock Band 2 the other day and I could relate to a pretty retarded song. "I Was Wrong", by Social Distortion. I believe it was the line,
"When I was young, I was so full of fear
I hid behind anger, held back the tears
It was me against the world, I was sure that I'd win
But the world fought back, punished me for my sins
I felt so alone, so insecure,
I blamed you instead and made sure I was heard
And they tried to warn me of my evil ways
But I couldn't hear what they had to say,
I was wrong."
Now, not only the lyrics, but admitting this is totally gay. But, hey, I also freaked out on two people that I love, and right after realized that was completely idiotic. So, I have to admit some bad things to myself to become a better person.
But some fun stuff happened. A few weeks ago Russell got arrested for punching some guy in the face. But after he spent the night in prison we went and saw Bang Camaro at Bottom of the Hill. Russell really liked that band from playing Guitar Hero and Rock Band. But when he saw it was a total sausage fest up on the stage. I got really drunk at that show. I haven't been that drunk in a long, long time. During one of the opening bands I asked them to dedicate a song to me and they did! They said, "This next one's for Candace!" So I got excited and pursued to finish my water bottle filled with vodka in the bathroom. I went back out and can't really go into details, being that I have none. But Russell told me I was doing what I thought was dancing, but it turned out to be running in place. He thought I meant to do it because, at the time, the song was called "Run for Your Life." But I continued to do it until I couldn't stand anymore. Russell made me leave before Bang Camaro was finished. I then started bawling because for some reason I thought BC was going to be mad at me for leaving early...haha.
But yus, nothing too exciting has happened since then. I'm having a Halloween/5th Anniversary get-together this Friday. Hopefully it'll be a fun time.